Trust

"I don't think the way you think. The way you work isn't the way I work.. for as the sky soars high above the earth, so the way I work surpasses the way you work, and the way I think surpasses the way you think." -Isaiah 55:8-10

I don't always get it. So much of the time I am confused about the way God works. His timing, His purpose, even His answers to many of my questions. This week I was struggling with His response to one of my cries. I found myself wondering if He was actually doing things "right" thinking if He would just do it some other way it would be so much easier. Then this verse came to my mind. How arrogant of me to assume that I know better than the One who created the universe. The one who so gently and perfectly brought me to knowing who He is and therefore who I am. Trusting God has been one of the most difficult things I've ever had to learn. His thoughts are so much higher than my own and He can see things I don't yet know of.

But before we can truly and fully trust Him we have to know Him. I mean really know Him, not just know of Him. The only way to truly discover who someone is, is to spend time with them. Hear the way they speak, feel their touch, walk through difficult times with them. In the same way we can't truly know God without spending time with Him. Studying about Him and going to church, while good, don't bring us into intimacy with Him. It's only in the quiet one-on-one time where He reveals His character to you personally. Once we can see that, so much becomes clear. One of the most life changing revelations I ever had was in discovering the depth of His love. When I understood that everything He does is out of a love that can only be experienced, never explained, I realized that there was no part of my life that He didn't want the absolute best for me. So even when I don't understand His ways, even when I am desperate for a different answer, I fall into the truth that His only motive is my well-being.

No choice I could make is better than His and no road I could choose to walk has a more incredible destination than where He is leading me. It doesn't happen over night, its a journey.

We live in a society that has made trust a very difficult thing to grasp. I know you've been hurt and I know people you once trusted have broken your heart. My trust was shattered when God started working on my heart and it took a long time for me to understand that He is the most gentle, loving, fulfilling relationship I have ever had. Don't be hard on yourself if you aren't there yet, keep at it. If you need to start small and build your trust in Him slowly He will prove Himself every single time. He wants to know you more than you could ever imagine and He wants to show you just how He thinks of you. Let Him show you how crazy in love with you He is.