Calm

"Don't fret or worry. Instead... pray. Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down." 

-Philippians 4:6-7

This week was rough. It's so hard to put experiences like this one into words... and words come easy to me. Words are what I do, when I have nothing else I can always write. But even now I find myself at a loss for the thing that usually brings me so much comfort.

My heart was aching this week and instead of turning to God I decided to turn to my fears. My worries overtook me and the deepest parts of me were shaken with anxiety. I allowed my emotions to wreak havoc over every area of my life. I felt confused, fuzzy and so weighed down. For days I felt like I was in a dream, or more accurately a nightmare. I let myself imagine the worst of the worst and found myself mourning deaths in my life that hadn't even happened. The enemy loves to trap us in our own minds, feeding us lies that seem so real and true when we have no bucket of truth to pull from. My time with God had been non existent and I had been neglecting His words, so in a moment of attack I couldn't find my weapon to fight with.

I was blinded by emotion and then, laying in bed with tears streaming down my face, a quiet voice remind me who I was.

I remembered that contrary to what he thought, the enemy has no authority over any area of my life.
I remembered that my life is not controlled by my circumstances.
And most importantly, I remembered who He is.

You see I had allowed what was happening around me make me forget that He is the One who holds it all. And while the world around me may be in chaos, my soul is at peace and when the storm rages around me I will not be shaken.

There will be times when it feels as if your world is falling apart around you. There will be days, weeks, maybe months when you are so broken you don't know how to keep going. We live in a world wrecked by a very real enemy who wants nothing more than to make you forget who you are. Let me remind you that you are a daughter of the King; you are above, and not beneath; you are powerful; you are bold; you are covered in grace and favor; you are loved; you are valuable; and you, beautiful, are so worth fighting for. Do not lay down your weapon and give-up this fight. When you can't stand, fall into Him. If the only thing you can remember in those moments is that He loves you and He is for you, declare that through the pain. Remember Who you have on your side, He is so incredibly in love with you and He never stops fighting for us. It's ok to get knocked down, just remember to get back up.